Hello,
Today I had a minor panic attack. I say minor because I managed to bring it under control by hiding in the bathroom and breathing very deeply for several minutes. It has given me a bit a fright as I've never had anything like this before in my life. I've taken it as a sign that I need a day off work and after much haggling have managed to arrange a few days at the end of the month, which I intend to spend lying in bed staring at the ceiling and ignoring the outside world. It has been suggested that I visit my GP but I can't say I've ever found them to be much help in the past. We shall see.
There's not much on the job front that's suitable for me at the moment and to that end I have decided to sign up for this and have a go at writing a book. I'm at a slight disadvantage because I've missed the start, the idea being that you start writing 1000 words a day from the 1st of February. The other problem I have is that I haven't a clue what to write about. I've had a half formed idea knocking about for the last few years relating to an insane couple I used to know who clearly hated each other but were somehow compelled to stay together. Then again, they were such bizarre people I don't know how believable a story about them would be. Nevertheless it should take my mind off work which continues to be a tortuous experience courtesy of the office bully.
If only I'd known today was National 'Sickie' Day.
Cheerio
7 comments:
I'd like to pre-order a copy of your book please, and I don't care what it's about.
Hope you find a way out of that place soon.
The only panic attacks i've had have been alcohol induced, so you know in that situation, the answer is to stop drinking like a fish. If it's work related, theres less you can do as it's not really possible to give up your job without something to replace it. I'd say you are probably right to avoid the quack. They'll just tell you to take up rugby or start jogging or somesuch flatulent bollocks. Unless the problem is recurring, in which case they just dole out drugs................
Blimey - make sure you get well soon! The hardest thing about starting a novel is just that - starting it. My advice, if you do decide to do it, is to write the first chapter and don't re-edit it until later - I've been stuck on the first chapter for months!
I'm with Alan. I want a novel from you too. And you'd better get some days off - see a doctor and get a 'sickie' And get through to Edinburgh for some culture and civilistion...
Take care
No need to panic, I'm still reading you and will continue to add my shrewd, witty, concise, thoughtful comments that do so much to raise the tone round here.
So, 'dinna' fash yoursel', lassie' as I believe the natives say up there!
Thank-you everyone. The novel seems to have turned into a rag bag of unrelated essays on different non-fiction topics but at least it's got me writing properly rather than just blogging. I've not had any further 'episodes' so I'm hopefully on the mend.
Jeremy Harding once said he was advised to live every as if it was his last, so he just lay in bed all day slipping in and out of consciousness. Sometimes I think that is a good model.
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